Your emotions are running hi because you need an income every month and you've got no savings to back you up.
Know that your system will give you an edge to make so much each month and keep that thought in mind once you are in the trade. After a while, you will be on auto pilot and you will no longer sweat out each trade. That reasoning got me over the hump with more contracts. Once I'm in lets say long, my only thoughts are: should I get out and buy back lower/add more/cut losses/or keep until target. Other than that, it's just a trade and I know I will make so much per month on average.
Good luck on your new career.
Know that your system will give you an edge to make so much each month and keep that thought in mind once you are in the trade. After a while, you will be on auto pilot and you will no longer sweat out each trade. That reasoning got me over the hump with more contracts. Once I'm in lets say long, my only thoughts are: should I get out and buy back lower/add more/cut losses/or keep until target. Other than that, it's just a trade and I know I will make so much per month on average.
Good luck on your new career.