Two years ago almost to the day, I traded for the first time ever. When my husband set up our IRA accounts with Etrade in the late 90âs, he researched some high quality dividend stocks, bought them in our IRAs and we never gave the accounts much thought until the selloff from Oct 2007 highs and a bad overall feeling about the market convinced us to convert mainly to cash. So on a day in February 2008 when I looked at the old stock list on our internet homepage, I noticed that a couple of the stocks we previously owned had dropped 5% for no apparent reason. I decided I wanted to buy them at that price and sell when they went back up. That was the stock market, right? Buy low, sell high!
Iâd never logged into Etrade before that day and never looked at my IRA account on-line. I was so nervous it took me 10 minutes to figure out how to buy shares. I sold my shares 5 days later for a significant gain. And that was my invitation to trading.
We were in a bull run off January lows, and every trade I took was a winning trade, even trades that initially drew down became profitable pretty quickly. I was making returns in a month that I didnât think possible to make in years. As a result I came to believe two things: 1) All long positions in fundamentally sound companies become profitable if youâre patient 2) Weâd be multi-millionaires in no time!
Nothing like changing market conditions combined with absolutely no plan for risk management to bring a new trader back to earth rather violently. I decided to undertake a dedicated and serious crash course in trading, attending many free webinars, learning Japanese candlestick analysis, reading books, learning about options. I had a very nice option trade on RIMM and bought 4 monitors with the proceeds. I then installed Etrade's direct access platform and started watching charts in real time 6.5 hours a day every day.
I started this journal in July 2008, just 5 months after my first trade. The reversal of my initial success and the frightening macroeconomic backdrop (the failure of Bear Stearns was a wake up call) convinced me that day trading was the road to success, as was mastering the short side as well as the long side of trading. (In fact, if I never held a position overnight from the time I started this journal, I would have a LOT more money right now.)
This journal turned out to be far more valuable to me than I ever imagined. Over time I learned about reading price bars, about moving averages, trends and reversals, about overbought and oversold conditions. I documented what I learned and began to illustrate my trades with charts so I could âseeâ them again and again and come to recognize common patterns. I became technically adept, but was still hindered by the difficulty of mastering the mental game.
I continued to make many mistakes, but gradually improved. I was profitable my first full year trading, not nearly as profitable as I expected to be, but I had so much to learn and the lessons were surprisingly harsh. I imagine they wouldnât stick if they were easy.
I recently underwent a paradigm shift. The soil was tilled with my education and the tuition of many losses. The seeds were planted with several âaha!â moments that came out of bighog pounding me again and again about trend following, reading Al Brooksâ awesome book, and discoveries I made during months of sim trading. Finally, the fertilizer was created as I made the same psychological mistakes again and again and again (nothing like the same old bullsh*t, day after day to enrich that soil). Very recently I realized that if I âstopped doing thatâ, the outcome would change. It was like emerging from a dense fog. Suddenly, I went from âknowingâ to âbelievingâ to âtrustingâ. It happened very quickly and there were two catalysts: Two crucial conversations with Redneck Trader and a very thorough reading of Trading in the Zone.
RN, you said something to me that echoes in my mind every trading day and I sincerely hope you donât mind me sharing:
âI know of no reason not to have many consecutive winning days - well except that one nagging dilemma we all have at one time or another... We are fighting our self, and not trusting/acting upon - what we see... irrespective of what we're thinking.â
I found that a combination of high probability setups and inviolable risk management is a recipe for success. Anyone can read this journal and know exactly how I trade. My strategies are but a few of many successful ways to extract money from the markets. Iâm sure Iâll add to them as my screen time and continued study add to my knowledge base.
I'm also sure I'll break down and make dumb mistakes again. That's human nature. I also have so much to learn; I seem to learn something new every day. I feel like I've come full circle back to that level of unshakable confidence I had when I first started out. But what I have now, which is far more important, is the ability manage risk with specific rules, including a max loss per day.
And so on the 2-year anniversary of my first interaction with the market, I have decided to end this public journal, and I've asked Magna to close the thread. I now recognize my mistakes right away, I take my setups, I recognize my mistakes pretty quickly when I make them, and I willingly pay the cost of admission to each trade without cursing the market when a stop is hit. I plan to analyze my trades in spreadsheet format rather than continue a journal-type log, so I can focus purely on my trading without distraction. This is my livelihood and I'm ready to launch myself to the next level. For me, focus is everything.
Iâve shared the most difficult parts of my journey with you, and so many of you shared invaluable information with me. I thank all of you who took the time to answer my questions, post helpful advice, and provide encouragement when I screwed up royally.
I especially want to thank bighog for encouragement, advice, market insights, stories, humor, books, Al Brooks(!), and a whole lot of great music! Hog, Iâm still awaiting that email from youâ¦you know the one.
