Lost -$3700 on Friday trying to short the DAX and then the /ES.
But the truth of the matter is, I still don't have the right psychological framework to do this consistently. Yes, I make money on most trades, but even these occasional impulse/revenge/over-sized trades just kill my results....I do the right thing for 2-3 weeks, and boom, 1 bad decision takes all those profits away.
It took me 9 years to be consistently profitable. I am now in year 21.
In those first 9 years, I went through every single thing you wrote in your post.
It sounds like you have the same problems that I had, discipline and psychology.
Here's what I figured out to overcome the battle within:
Step 1: Before you enter any trade, you must know
(A) a favorable "Buy Limit."
(B) a "Sell Limit" (Profit)
(C) and the "Stop,"
Step 2: You Profit to Stop Ratio should be no less than R/R: 1.0 (profit) / 1.0 (loss).
(A) "But," to have a R/R of 1/1, you personal W/L ratio must be a minimum of 65%.
(B) If your W/L is less than 65%, then your Profit to Stop Ratio must increase
to R/R: 1.5 (profit) / 1.00 (stop), or even R/R: 2 (profit) / 1 (Stop).
"Whatever Ratio creates a decent profit with your personal long term W/L ratio."
Step 3: Now here's the last but Most Important item:
(A) "From the second the trade is entered, you most eliminate yourself from the trade."
(Your worst enemy is yourself.")
(B) At this point in your trading life, you don't have the proper psychology and discipline to sit there and watch these trades! You need to eliminate yourself from the trade.
Here is how:
(C) If your followed Step 1 & 2 above, then on your next trade you already know your
Buy Limit, Sell Limit, & Stop.
(D) Before the market opens, setup a semi-automated Bracket Order. A Bracket order has
all 3 components of a trade (Buy Limit, Sell Limit, & Stop) combined into a single semi-automated execution.
You type in your Buy Limit, Sell Limit, & Stop, click "Transmit" and walk away.
Everything is done for you.
Don't watch the trade! Turn off the trade station and go do something else.