hahaha!!! I thus did well to ask.
seemed : an assumption, that turns out to be wrong. Once in a while, I spend some
time reading ET threads. When reading yours, I really wondered how things were turning out
in the trading. Your thread is really a very good reflection of what trading day to day can be about.
Progressed much better than I thought. I wished I had first invested in psychology/spirituality THEN into the technicalities of trading: the conditionnings were just so deeply ingrained, and trading is so hypnotic that effectively one's "deep unconscious psychology" does start to drive the trading. At least, the cleaning up is done. Basically, the trading is kind of reflection of your "addictives" ways of doing things.
Though, the side effects seemed to be a kind of jaded state of mind: I feel I have seen/understood really too much of "human nature", including mine. May be not being able "technically" to travel is not helping as well - make the most of your travelling

. Anyway, to realize - and experience - that many things one does, are actually "like a software" that runs inspite of your conscious awareness makes one wonders. Then add to it, as they call it, getting a hint about some 'esoterism' and that it is not lunacies - but very closely guarded knowledge, that are well understood and used by some - really makes me really wonder. I can not thank enough some very well intentionned people - as I also got to understand some 'realities' I had no ideas about. I guess now the LOA will bring closure.
Even music is not even an innocent thing - from an 'esoterism' point of view.