Quote from oldtime:
been there, pulled the jeep in the garage' closed the door and started the motor. When I woke up I was so sick, I ran in the house and collapsed, and all I wanted was a fresh breath of air, and I would give anything for it, even if it meant selling my soul for just one more breath of life. Life looked very hopless back then, Now I am extremely happy. The problem arises when we doubt we can ever be happy without what at the moment we think is currently making us happy. It would be very difficult for me to go back and live the way I was living, but I suppose I could if I had to, but it is not really crazy to sometimes think of that as a fate worse than death.