After almost 2 years of back testing and coming up with a mechanical strategy I decided to go to live market. I've been trading with an average of 50-200 shares and made a small profit of 150 dollars for the month which came to 20 dollars after fees/data. I trade on 10M time frames so I don't get a lot of trades, it probably comes out to around 1-2 a week that actually make anything. I don't really think I'm going to lose any money if i stick to the plan but my fear is not making very much. All was going well until the past 2 days. I'm a long only and lately there has been so much opportunity that I've had no part of because of my large time frame. My small stupid profits bugged me enough today to start discretionary trading which was a disaster. Slippage in real markets is by far my worst enemy. Today I ate a stop loss of 40 cents slippage on the largest amount of shares I've ever traded, which resulted in me losing 170 bucks. The money isn't what bugs me, it's the fear of not being able to make it back feeling like I'm hitting a constant wall with fees and small gains. My average gain is probably 10-60 cents after waiting for the trade patiently over a 10-30 minute period. To be stopped out and initially have a 6 cent risk that turns into a 20-40 cent risk seems ridiculous, even on stocks with average volume above 1m. Why would anybody trade if the black swan losses are so much larger than the gains. Most 2 dollar stocks don't move 30 cents in a day, let alone 50 cents in slippage. Am I eating these large losses due to herd mentality? I don't have very many options outside of trading, the average wages where I live are probably 5 bucks a day so I'm very frustrated.
