"So I really feel there is nothing else to learn technically or test.. I need to go live. My plans can trade a single contract and make $$, so I can trade a single contract for risk control. I also have a DLL limit set to cut me off if I spiral out of control. I have some mind techniques now I did not have before as well."
It sounds to me like you have developed an edge and are barely able to follow
it in SIM? If at the end of the day you see things differently then you did live in
the market as far as your method goes then likely your issue is a deep psychological one.
You have already received some great advice here. What happens is the market triggers something deep inside from the time your ego was being developed to protect you- And that something is telling you that "You SUCK".
You need to go deep- You need to face those core beliefs and observe and understand them. If you have these issues with SIM they will only intensify live. Once you deal with the personality psychological issues you can deal with the technical issues later- fills- spreads etc later in live.
IMHO looking external to add something to your method will only delay the journey that now you need to embark.
Your post resonated with me because it sounded identical to my story. The journey for me has been life changing. I apologize in advance this will likely be a very long post.
First give yourself a huge amount of credit- Credit for developing a method with an edge- for trusting yourself to do so. Thank yourself for having the balls to post this publically, and thank yourself for admitting that there is probably something deeper you need to change before going live because you have just saved a lot of cash.
Trading is about believing in yourself as has been noted. It was helpful to me to
understand how all this shit works. Ego- Subconscious and emotions. Living from inside vs outside fulfillment.
Here are my suggestions to start.
1. Attend a hypnosis show- If you don't have one locally take a trip to Vegas.
I saw the Anthony Cools show years ago- laughed my ass off- But that is not your purpose. Try to mingle with the crowd before the show - You will want to
prove to yourself that there are not any planted participants in the crowd.
If you don't want to do that talk to the participants afterwards and look at the reactions of the friends or relatives closest to them to see their reactions. Do this to reassure yourself that what you witnessed is the truth to what I am about to share.
The folks that get selected in the group will display what is possible without the
ego present. The ego is there to protect us it was built during childhood and
depending on the traumas in your being raised it will be weaker or stronger.
The folks with the weaker egos will be on the stage. Depending on the show you will hear granular details of their life that a few minutes earlier they would never remember. As the show progresses you will likely see participants asked to leave- The reason I suspect is that as they progress the next task kicks the ego back in and they fall out.
The lesson for me was huge - I had the benefit years ago of taking a date to one of these. I knew her well- She was selected and quite frankly the star of the show. Afterwards she was approached by many people and it was surprising how
many people believed she was a plant and only doing it to try and get exposure for
an acting career ( which she had no intention of).
So trading triggers deep down emotions developed by experiences, traumas creating beliefs that make you are what you are today. How can you dig deep and find out
these things that the ego was built from - Knowing the ego does not want to let you face them because it is trying to protect you? That is the hardest part and requires
you to take an amazing journey into yourself.Or at least that is what I required to do
for myself.
Unfortunately Hypnosis is not strong enough to get you there. In my experience.
NLP is not strong enough- EFT is not strong enough - None of that was for me anyway- I tried them all- I have every psychological program for traders - All worthless because none of them can get to the root of the issue inside you that each time you put a trade on tells you that "YOU SUCK".
If you are into programs there is one program I took which was awesome- It was developed by an actor Josh something for actors but can be used by anyone.
Josh's father worked with Albert Einstein and taught him at a young age that emotion is simply energy- That as humans we are simply energy. The program is called committed impulse. It is an awesome program. I am not an affiliate or anything but it is 10 fold better than any of the professional trading programs I have.
The bad news: You don't know what you don't know and you will not because
your ego wont let you.
The good news: There are people out there that can read the shit in your head
for you. This is where I am going to sound like a real weirdo- and I am fine with that. These people can look inside you and tell you what traumas you have to bring them to light. Some people can see them and remove them for you but won't tell you
what they are.
Once you know what your core issues/beliefs are you can meditate on them
and when that improves you can start observing as they come up in the market. The simple observation in the moment will be HUGE. Then those old beliefs just vanish
and then you start seeing the market with a new set of eyes. You can get into the zone everyone alludes to but rarely achieve. Your beliefs will change- and once you
execute in SIM perfectly as you would at the review at the end of the day you are ready to go live. Your personality issues should be resolved with the one issue
remaining going live and that will be your survival emotion.
Survival is meaning the account you are trading is not depended on to live. Should you go through this process it is very likely that you will recognize who you really are and it will be totally different than your previous belief. The suffering ends here.
So..
The key is to create new beliefs- To do this you need to identify your old false ones
Then believe in yourself. You are a creator your emotions are simply the energy that empower you to apply to your beliefs to act in the NOW.
Here is a great video that summarizes some of this but does not go into the detail of what I tried to explain earlier.
The people I have used to assist me cost anywhere from $60 and hour to $1200 an hour.
If you decide to take this journey I can guarantee it will be the most powerful thing you have ever done.
Hope this helps