Success brings it's days of melancholy. I can make a half million bucks a month now trading futures. I've got it down pat. Not selling anything or answering PMs on that from guys with various misspellings of Sean and Brandon etc. but just for context. (Just treat trading like you want to be a soloist at the Met young lads, work, no tricks)
I do a respectable amount of charity and community work. I have a daughter, a young adult now who is completing her PhD.
But I'm not adjusting to having no problems and no worries very well. The ultimate first world dilemma. I am finding things that don't actually matter to be concerned about, I can feel my brain digging and sifting for gold in a largely empty stream.
I used to get seasonally affected depression but since moving to near the equator that is gone for years. To be honest the boom and bust was not so much of a problem as I understood the dark times would pass and I'd be fine for nine months. I'm fit enough, I get edgy when too exercised, that gym burn addiction tires me out.
I've hardly had a conversation in years where I did not largely know how it would end. It is difficult to find really much more intelligent than me friends who are not nearly always busy.
Unlike many, I don't really have that sense of spirituality, I'd like to, I had some, but my brain seems very good at saying to me that pattern in randomness is not real, ignore it. I can't even pretend to myself I sense a higher force. Trading did that for sure.
Does anyone later 40s+ perhaps have any advice on is this a phase, just how it is or any ideas on what can shift this? First world problem as they say but worth a shot asking.
