***when I seek a woman, I seek a real woman, not a woman who feels that she should act and behave like a man... ***
I am on the opposite end of the stick actually, one thing that always attracted me more than anything else is her fierce competitive nature.
Shortee:
She is 20, I am 22, the clock hasn't started to tick yet.
Believe me I have asked her if she can be mine, and the answer has been a cold hard no. I asked her if I have a chance down the road, and the answer has been a "I don't know what the future is going to be like".
As a matter of fact, I think now that I have pursued her for 3 years, it is highly unlikely that she will have that "sudden spark" feeling toward me in this life time. I know I want to marry her more than anything else in this life time, and my only chance is to be there for her, until one day she realizes that you want someone you love at first sight to be your boyfriend, but you want someone who truly madly deeply loves you to be your husband.
Maybe a few years from now, when her clock starts to tick, when I have won the war on the street, when she realizes that we have been together for so long and our bond is so strong, she will choose me.
In the mean time, sometimes I asked myself what if she is with me now, can I still put in the same hours into my work as I have been, probably not. I mean, STOCKKBROKER has hundreds of semi-nude pics on his computer as a screen saver, and it never bothered me. Yet a single picture of her without make-ups in plain jeans somehow speeds up my heart beat.
And it is not like I am desperately in need of her as my girl friend just so I can fulfill my "needs" or anything of that nature. I want to be the last man she is with in her life.