Quote from PennyTrader:
Bighead,
Most of you guys have a regular job and trade stocks for fun - trade or not trade, win or loss won't affect your daily life much. I am trading for a living, this is a serious business. I don't have a second job. I am trying to survive each day with that small capital, I use my proceeds to pay bills, mortgage, and all family expenses each month. Double or triple or whatever is not my goal, that's for some others to brag and get paid from memberships.
I did quite well for the first two and half weeks, this past week is a wash due to various reasons and bad luck as I posted.
I've a little less than you do after wired out three times for the month ($8K+$5K+2K), next month won't be easy, I've to take out at least $7K from the account, Besides, I'll be in China for three weeks, need a lot of $$ to pay for this un-expected trip, I don't know if I can trade stocks when I'm in China, a tough road is ahead of me.
I don't want to think any more on that, I don't want to add more pressure. I wish I can borrow a $20K loan to solve this family crisis. Without a regular job, borrowing money is not easy.
I know God is there watching me, he's been with me very minute, he loves me regardless I am rich or poor, big capital or small capital, I am trying to be on his side and pray for that. I know he penalized me when I had bad judgements without following his steps and advices.
Eventually, I will be more disciplined and be more responsible. No more gambling and no more bad habits, these are evils and sin acts costed me dearly in the past, and they're continuing to attract me to repeat the same mistakes. I'll resist the temptation to follow evil plays even they looks like attractive and offer high rewards. I have to follow the God, follow the charts, and follow the trend. I've to refuse the attractive offers from evils. The God will take care of me with my hard work, my sincerity, my patience, and my intepretation of what he wants me to do in the stock market.
In the end, I am here for a reason, I wrote down what I did right and what I did wrong, and continue to do what I have been doing right.