This was a week full of lessons on how I'm making decisions that are negatively affecting my trading. I used to think poor trades were simply a lack of understanding of technical analysis, and I'm sure that does play a part, but for this week, it was all me.
Today: Lost 71 demo ticks (I'm allowing 3 trades a day)
2 Full stop outs and 1 half stop out.
I didn't trade the clear trend down. Why? Even though I found opportunities that followed my rules, I don't like shorting. It would have been better to trade the opportunities my plan allowed for, trading with the trend, than to take trades where I took them. But I didn't want to take nice, clear set ups, because I don't like shorting first thing after the Open.
So, instead, I waited.
For a while I thought about walking away from the charts because I didn't want to short and thought it would be a while before I could take a long trade that met my conditions. That is probably what I should have done.
Then there was chop and I became impatient and traded in the chop. How many times have I done that and determined not to trade in 5 min bar ranges? I knew it was ranging. But somehow, thought price was slowing down so much, that if I didn't get a breakout, it would move so quickly I wouldn't be able to get in safely and have price continue far enough to get to my target.
So, I chose to not get in safely, in hopes that what I was wishing for would happen.
Better thing to do would be to not have taken any trades today.
I need to learn to wait.
And be OK with waiting even more. Even a whole day.
Waiting is better than losing.
I just keep repeating these same lessons over and over....and over....and over. Will I ever learn?
There was really no excuse for taking the 2nd and 3rd trades. I think they were a flare up of the revenge trading that I'm very prone to.
This week, my statistics and trades list are a little complicated because I tried a lot of mechanical entries in a second demo account on the NQ, not trading direction, but seeing how tight I could get a stop loss to break even and not get stopped out first. I'm not including those losses here.
I'm also not including losses on the YM.
I am including every other trade taken on the NQ, which is my regular trades, and the one premarket trade I took, and also one other trade I took to compare NQ with YM, which probably shouldn't be included, because it was experimental, but then, it did work, and it helps me feel like I had a winning week....even though I kind of didn't.
Main NQ Demo Trading Account:
Lost 12 ticks this week:
NQ Demo for experiments and Premarket trades:
Made 71 ticks, if you don't include the trades that weren't really trades (super tight stop loss and moving to BE quickly).
Live Account: Lost 29 ticks ...that was posted ealier. Don't want to repost it again.
So, if I manipulate all the stats, I actually ended up with a positive 59 ticks in demo for the NQ and negative 29 ticks for live. Not too bad for a roller coaster of a week.
More than anything, I need to have the self-discipline to trade right. Never, ever, thought trading would be so much about self-control. Used to think it was about reading charts accurately...and it is, but I guess the difference is that I thought I should be able to read the charts at all times, and take trades anywhere that I liked and have them work, if I just knew how to read price action. Now it seems if this is going to work, I have to stick with only the places I know have a tendency to work. What is hard to accept is that I've realized this before and I'm still having a really hard time sticking with my rules that help to get those good trades.