23.... how did you feel?
I might have thought system stops working from this point on even though I have backtest data if I lost 23... that would take some time to recover..
Well, the first time I was doing one lots in 1993, using overnight margin on futures as which I would trade, took me 6 months to lose and I was doing up to 6 month holding periods including rollovers on profitable trades, risking back then $200, so was down approx. $4900 on $25k account and on 24th and 25th trade, made it all back.
The 2nd time of 23 in a row losses, I had graduated to very long term holding in commodities/futures of years sometimes, graduated to experienced regarding Hedging, that year I actually had a few long periods of number in a row losses on futures side, but on the options side was profitable, for the year I was profitable on futures side of 5% of my trades and options side was profitable 92% to cover losses plus little more. Long term, I am the "yahoo" that will eventually find highs/lows or percentage of nine year cycles and do counter trend on original entries seeking to gain 50-75% of 9 year cycle, once found the extremes, then when world says trend has changed, I go counter again to add to original entries, countless rollovers, enough times of addons from 3 to 16. So profits can snowball. System is always early, been shorting Indexes for 2.5 years, always hedged but seldom Hedged in usually manners, have to think outside the bun. My risk of Hedge to futures is always no worse than zero at time of entry, but due to "time" aspects as back testing shows me over staying new entries not at breakeven stops yet, works against position. If lose on futures but market then turns around, that is where losses achieved.
"How did I feel?" I am not like "normal" humans, having Asperser's, don't have understanding of many of the negative emotions, I understand love and life, not despair or anger, I don't think in terms of right and wrong or me against anyone, I love the challenge of me against me. I do get frustrated at myself when I have gone against my systems, but in different ways than all the rest, maybe not, who knows. I use to get very frustrated of not understanding people, but have come to terms of being in my 60s, so now it is more of "fu*k'em and feed them peanuts" for "they" should be at zoos.
Ever hear of take care of your losers, the winners will take care of themselves?
Exactly.
I never get euphoric winning streaks, don't understand happiness but a sense of applied the correct moves. Now all automated, but always trying to make hedges in different ways which has lead to viewing options in different ways as well.