Quote from cap'ncod:
... You actually want to fail... You WANT DEATH.
Nah, this is not some subconscious shit. He's just lazy and simply wants to lotto his way out of work. Only that for all his arrogance he doesn't have the balls to tell his parents that he's going to put his money in lotto tickets so he has to pretend his gambling is a profession. Don't worry, he'll be ok.