Jas,
Don't take this the wrong way, but you not had enough pain yet, every couple months are "son of a bitch", you keeping reading your pyscho book, have it memorized quotes and you expect that to touch the subconscious? You going to keep going down till you reach that area where you crawling on the floor with Holy Cow pain, you are way past the system, you are way past the discipline, you are fighting the emotions within you, perhaps you feeling the pain of being successful or pains of possible being a failure, you feeling the raw hurt of who Jas is within. I been there in 1991-1992, all the most horrible emotions coming out, and from there I did better. It not the system or risk, it is just you.
Might be time to take couple months off. Work on you.
Jas,
Don't take this the wrong way, but you not had enough pain yet, every couple months are "son of a bitch", you keeping reading your pyscho book, have it memorized quotes and you expect that to touch the subconscious? You going to keep going down till you reach that area where you crawling on the floor with Holy Cow pain, you are way past the system, you are way past the discipline, you are fighting the emotions within you, perhaps you feeling the pain of being successful or pains of possible being a failure, you feeling the raw hurt of who Jas is within. I been there in 1991-1992, all the most horrible emotions coming out, and from there I did better. It not the system or risk, it is just you.
Might be time to take couple months off. Work on you.
Yeah, that's possible. Me being in the middle of it doesn't give me that perspective to say just step away. Maybe if I stick with it longer i'll reach that required pain threshold.:eek: (I'm kidding of course)
) or how I would teach myself if I could go back and do that. Mostly thoughts nothing written out except when I go back and clean up my plan.