And I believe if I “think” I can then i will find a way to create my reality.
I don't agree with this. No matter what you think or do, there is always a (more than) fair chance you will never find that way to create your reality. In trading it is even not a fair chance, the probability of failure is much higher than the probability of creating your reality. Most have to adapt to reality instead of creating one.
I know several "traders" that were thinking they would find it, but ended with a failure. The did all they could, were very determined and motivated, but never made it.