I don't really feel guilty. I know I deserve every penny I make from trading because I don't deny the process in which I got here.
It is what I seeked for so I got it. I do want to get better with my trading, I still hit the books and test ideas I get while and while not trading.
Personally, it's the same old thing. There are ups and downs but friends, GF, and other people are what I expect it to be. Just having fun with an occasional problems but that's part of relationships.
Philanthropy? Maybe I should start a family first. Though, I want to stay single. Friends of mine who's married tells me to marry and have kids. They say that I've achieved what "I" want so it's natural step for me to take care of my family and others.
Time will prevail but insights like InandLong is a breather. Thanks for the great post.
PS. I guess I shut BIG TUNA's shit mouth. BIG TUNA, we are all traders so I think we can get a good idea if you are who you talk to be like if you explain to us your trading routines and style. Don't get me wrong, I don't want your exact system, just an explanation of your style.