You're 73 years old, and you've been attempting this trading game thing for roughly 14 years or more...?
Jesus, just call the game over already...and open a small seaside cafe or something peaceful and romantic and slow like that,
People like you are just like habitual Vegas casino travelers...convinced God will grant them their divine big luck break any day,
Not to sound grim, but your trading chapter of your life is virtually over. -- Start a new chapter, or adventure or passion,
When I hear discouraging words like this I am reminded of the poem "Don't Quit". I copy it below. I would love to give credit to the author but I know not who it is. A dear friend who lost his 11 year battle with cancer 6 months ago had this engraved on his Cribbage Board. He made it many many years beyond what his Doctors thought possible simple because he did not quit. He was actually beginning to win his battle until a brain hemorrhage took him quickly. I know you mean well so I take no offense.
Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
when care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out,
Don't give up through the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow..
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victors cup
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
You never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.