I had demerol in a hospital once. I did not like it at all really. It produced a sort of a boredom to the nth power feeling and I had vivid hallucinations/dreams but they were boring as well. I was addicted after only a few days too but it wore off.
I feel better if I just quit the caffeine, problem is that I then have even less ambition and I am a very unambitious person to begin with. Depression is thought to stem from problems with the serotonin receptor sites and the production of serotonin. You can have a problem with one or the other and never be depressed but if you have problems with both you will get depressed, which I do like clockwork every winter. The 5-htp might work for me in upping the levels, certainly it's a better way to go than to take the SSRI meds that the psych guy wants me to take. I have been watering my coffee down progressively more periodically. I am at about 3 parts water to 1 part coffee and as I progress with this I am gaining a feeling of well being [and hydrating better].
I feel better if I just quit the caffeine, problem is that I then have even less ambition and I am a very unambitious person to begin with. Depression is thought to stem from problems with the serotonin receptor sites and the production of serotonin. You can have a problem with one or the other and never be depressed but if you have problems with both you will get depressed, which I do like clockwork every winter. The 5-htp might work for me in upping the levels, certainly it's a better way to go than to take the SSRI meds that the psych guy wants me to take. I have been watering my coffee down progressively more periodically. I am at about 3 parts water to 1 part coffee and as I progress with this I am gaining a feeling of well being [and hydrating better].