thanks for the replies- fucking nightmare.
the reason i hesitated to hedge is that when this happened once in the past (not 3 contracts and my fault), i tried to hedge and the hedge actually made things worse. i could have hedged with the STW, for instance, and it hardly fell today. you also run into margin issues due to the high $ margin requirement for HSI overnight coupled with the overnight on the hedge. add in that i was kinda shell shocked last night (had my worst trading day ever then this happened at the close- wasn't thinking as clearly as i'd have likes. shoulda just went short a shit load of ES and hoped they correlated (of course they did, in spades... because i didn't do it!).
my loss at the open was like $14m- the HSI usually continues a directional move like this after the open so i got out. of course.... today, it reversed- fuck me.
worst part is that when STW opened and didn't drop i decided to short it to hedge- $2,800 later i got stopped out for the 2nd time and just about blew a fuse.
so, was down almost $17m after closing the 3 HSI, then lost another $2m trading the HSI to go down over 19m. threw my phone, broke a mirror (oops) and then walked away for a few minutes.
head's on a little straighter now but i am still pretty fucking pissed that faulty data put me in this shit storm. i've staged a pretty fucking good rally, now down $9,933.08. hoping it continues in teh afternoon session- i'm getting pretty gun shy though- don't want to see down $19m again- so we'll see.
christ, this is like a blog post. i'll post the post mordem on my anal raping once i finish. if i move on to trading the DAX, that means i'm in trouble!
the reason i hesitated to hedge is that when this happened once in the past (not 3 contracts and my fault), i tried to hedge and the hedge actually made things worse. i could have hedged with the STW, for instance, and it hardly fell today. you also run into margin issues due to the high $ margin requirement for HSI overnight coupled with the overnight on the hedge. add in that i was kinda shell shocked last night (had my worst trading day ever then this happened at the close- wasn't thinking as clearly as i'd have likes. shoulda just went short a shit load of ES and hoped they correlated (of course they did, in spades... because i didn't do it!).
my loss at the open was like $14m- the HSI usually continues a directional move like this after the open so i got out. of course.... today, it reversed- fuck me.
worst part is that when STW opened and didn't drop i decided to short it to hedge- $2,800 later i got stopped out for the 2nd time and just about blew a fuse.
so, was down almost $17m after closing the 3 HSI, then lost another $2m trading the HSI to go down over 19m. threw my phone, broke a mirror (oops) and then walked away for a few minutes.
head's on a little straighter now but i am still pretty fucking pissed that faulty data put me in this shit storm. i've staged a pretty fucking good rally, now down $9,933.08. hoping it continues in teh afternoon session- i'm getting pretty gun shy though- don't want to see down $19m again- so we'll see.
christ, this is like a blog post. i'll post the post mordem on my anal raping once i finish. if i move on to trading the DAX, that means i'm in trouble!