you looking for a good story, in this business I have come full circle. I stasrted out in 97 and traded my own acct thru 2000. Made what I thought was plenty of change at 20 over 6 fiqures. Packed up and moved to FL for the good life at 23. Spent nearly evry dime in my new oasis in Fl. But at 23 who could tell you any different, I figured the market would always be there, I was making a killing on old naz favs like, jboh, sieb, puma, sath, bamm, fncm, eeln, etc. low float pump and dump stocks, but they kept the shirt on my back. Then The nasdaq cracked in early 2000 and the only job I could find in Fl was as a retail broker after I went broke. Cold pitching people to buy stock just like you saw in boiler room. made some sales and some money but nothing nearly as exciting as tading. Watched a friend in the biz a large producer kill himself after the naz cracked, another friend go away for parking peole in penny stocks that weren't in existence. I then left the business, for a while, did something wholesome and started a contracting company, in naples fl. Not nearly as glamourous as trading or the biz as a whole but it was like a rehab of sorts. In the last yr the trading bug struck again and I went to work for one of the now defunct "pro" houses. Left there and moved back home to philly. I am now 27, and own a contracting company in NJ, It is a whole lot easier on my mind as far as stress is concerned, and relatively easy to handle considering some of the stress I have endured in the past, but not nearly as challenging. I am now at the crossroads, my company is taking off, but I still itch to trade.
I am always looking for some good opps but all these prop houses are glorified retail shops that wine and dine you with the leverage, but aren't willing to absorb the risk or share in it for that matter. I guess I am either considering being the casino and starting a shop, or waiting for a better business model to come around as far as prop is concerned.
My point with this is to let you know you are not alone out there, and succes can only be measured by how much you are actually valued on this earth. Success has no monetary definition, someone who is truly successful wont fret about the things he is without, or what he use to be. To be successful is simply to know where you are going, through all your dilemma's, just rebuild and dig deeper. Hey if you made it before use that confidence that you had in the past and reinvent yourself.
GOod luck to you
THe world is yours you just have to go get it.