Quote from ksonsinc:
Well i have to say Fri 20 2006 was a tuff day
i have never been down more then $300 on my pl since i started trading past 2 week
Today i was down (- 2000 )
I was playing with lot of 1000 shares which i usually dont play with
ever trade went against me and i held till 4.00 a clock to sell every thing at the worst level
Well we all thought there would be a little buying coming in but it did not it just went to the lowest level it could
I had been up $500 for the week but i guess i am now down (-1500 for the week due to my stupid mistake and stubborness
I am lucky that i did not average down as the system did not let me other wise i would have been way way down as the market never looked back
have you been in such a situtation and how do u come over it
Like the fear the loss the depression
please advice or give me your oponion
first, i'm not a fan of being lucky in this business. how reliable will luck be next time you're in the same situation? what if the system had allowed you to average down? what if it does allow it next time? don't let luck be what keeps you from blowing up.
next, no need for self-recrimination. don't let it be a 'stupid mistake'. you've identified partial cause for your decision - stubbornness. you had a choice of fight or flight. you chose fight and lost. had you chosen flight, you would stand a better chance of survivability. you traded your thoughts, not the market. you aren't the first to do it and won't be the last.
some technical concerns:
1. not sure what you were trading, but it sounds like your position sizing was very disproportionate to normal trading levels. again, luck can make this seem very attractive or very unattractive. you go so far as to say you were 'playing with' a 1000-share position. it may seem harmless, but how you write/think/speak of your trading can be very indiative of how you truly perceive trading. is this a business? hobby? gambling? action fix? ego stroke? entertainment?
2. in a single session you were willing to risk 12 times your reward ($500/3 = $166 reward per session; $2000/$166 = 12 risk to 1 reward ratio). even your normal risk is nearly 2 risk to 1 reward (max dd so far $300 / $166).
3. where was your risk management? opinions on stops are as numerous as there are instruments to trade. it sounds like you didn't have a plan for risk management.
further, you need to really examine why this behavior was okay with you. it sounds obvious, but if you want to be a successful trader, be a successful trader. would a successful trader trade the same way you did today? if not, why did you? if he wouldn't trade as you did today, how would he have traded? why did you elect not to be the successful trader today?
you have several crucial steps. stop doing what you did. discover what you need to do. do that. be conscious of some common side effects from days like today: desire to win it back, to revenge trade; trading scared; repeating your actions (a habit in motion can be very relentless; let your habit be successful trading).
as steve pointed out, it's not the end of the world. it sucks. it may not be over. and it shouldn't feel comfortable. but there is much more in life. make sure the rest of your life is in check and that you're not trying to trade to compensate for things that aren't in line.
hth
take care
omni