...since you are an alias yourself (or perhaps even an alias of an alias), indubitably I should engage one or more of my manifold aliases, many of whom you have heard from here, to discourse with you. However they are all busy trading my multi-fractal accounts (LT, IT, and intraday), so I shall condescend to address you myself. As a lifetime (or longer) futures trader, I can assert with complete confidence that what you need is leverage. First, quit trading stocks, and start trading futures. The lower the performance bond and the higher the tick multiplier, the better. Second, set up one or more supplemental machines (as many as you can afford) logged in to "art" sites (what I like is "art", what you like is "porn"). Then randomly enter a trade for the full amount of your account in your vehicle of choice at a time of low volume and with no stop. You will soon find the stress mounting, you will desperately seek relief from it, and your problem will be solved. Don't forget to exit the trade before you pass out from low blood flow to your other head. All the best.