What went wrong: When I took cash advance on my credit card, I did it because I knew I was going to make enough money to pay it back and have my own account within a week. But that didn't happen.
I actually made some money. Everyday I am ahead from the day and I seem to lose all that and more towards the end of the day.
Why was I profitable in the early part of the day, and I was losing huge after that?
I had some time for myself this weekend, and I really thought hard about this and finally figured out what was happening.
Most of the losses resulted in the afternoon, or after I was ahead for the day. Those losses primarily resulted because I wasn't strictly following my entry criterias. I usually read the time and sales to get in on momentum and front run those sure fire places. Some times, there are those so and so entries that I shouldn't be taking and I end up taking it because I was ahead for the day. Usually, these trades go against me right off the entry. Also because I was ahead for the day, sometimes I end up trading 2 contracts.
Since I am ahead for the day, and I am willing to lose everything I made for the day, I tell myself when I am about to get stopped out for a -$50 loss (or -$100 if 2 cars), see.. I am ahead +$300 for the day, lets give it a little bit more room. If I do this, most likely I won't be losing money. What am I going to lose? and most likely it is going to come back.
Before you know it, you're -$300 down on the trade and negative for the day. Then I tell myself, umm.. -$300 is too large a loss to take on a trade and no way this trade could go against me this much. Lets give it my max drawdown (-$200) for the day on this trade and see what happens, and , I am looking at -$500 loss. Then I tell myself... This is my whole freaking account, and I cannot under any circumstance liquidate it now. Lets see if it comes back around, and I usually end up blowing my accounts out.
This is so exciting. I know what I am doing wrong now. Oh man, I just can't wait for Monday!!!.. Thanks a lot for all of you that helped. Each and every comment made me think a lot about myself and what I was doing wrong.