===============Quote from Compulsive:
"... Make every effort (be diligent) to add to your faith, goodness; and to goodness, knowledge."
Mizh-el;
This is one of the better answers.
And frankly, it sounds like you are a sensitive young man, like myself, never would want to be a pro boxer & get brains beaten on , simply too sensitive.
Reading is good brain exercise ,brain gets better with use;
& fish like wild salmon, sardiness really are ''brain food''
''Make every effort {be diligent} to add to your faith ,
goodness; and to goodness , knowledge''
And frankly you said you lost a huge amount of money;
amazing how many of us traded way too large [traded to big for bankroll] when new.
Hope your heart is healed now;
that is very painful breakup/broken heart/female friend.
Trading too big a position is ''get rich quick'' seldom if ever works;
like a lottery is a stupid tax on people that cant do math. Even lotto ''winners'' cant manage money, many file bankruptcy.
which frees you from the earthly defects of your personality - for good.