jr07,
One other thing. It is in no way an exaggeration when I tell you that it will take you many thousands of hours to become a successful trader. I probably put in around 5000 hours of work before I started to consider myself reasonably confident and knowledgeable about the market. That included time spent reading, studying, writing out my trading plan, trying different strategies, etc... over a period of years, including one year of incredibly intensive study. I also blew out my account in spectacular fashion one time, and nearly blew it out again a second time.
5000 hours of work is the equivalent of approximately 32 months of full-time work at 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, with no vacations. That's almost 3 years of full-time study, or the equivalent of getting a university degree. Granted, I was trying to do something a little more difficult than most in terms of learning to scalp on short time frames, but still, these numbers are not atypical.
How much time have you put in so far in studying charts, trading, etc? Chances are it will take you years to get it, and you only started last year. You started out as everybody does thinking that this will be easy. Then you learned that it's not so easy. Then you tried adapting, changing to the short-side instead of the long side. Then you got nailed again. Now you are capitulating on the short side at close to the wrong time. This is very typical.
The next step is to realize that you aren't ready yet, go away for a long time, and work hard at this by developing and testing a system. You aren't just missing one little thing that is preventing you from being a successful trader at the moment, you are missing a LOT. You are not even REMOTELY close at the moment. There's nothing wrong with that, but it's going to take time to work through it all, and it's important that you understand this.
Most people get to the stage you are at now and either give up, or keep on doing dumb things and lose even more money, some of them going broke. I have seen some truly sad stories where people lost their entire life's savings, money that they spent decades accumulating. Don't be one of those people.
You seem smart enough to know that you don't know a lot right now, which is encouraging. However - unless you REALLY are prepared to do whatever it takes, work as hard as you have to, for as long as you have to, even years if that's what it takes - then just give up now. It will save you a lot of money and frustration, trust me.
Decide how much you really want this before continuing too much further - this isn't a hobby, it's a very dangerous game. That's the best advice I can give you.