I've been away for awhile. Back in November I lost about 75% of my capital during the election. Afterwards I decided to quit trading for good due to my mind feel like it was about to snap. It did and I started to develop depression. Then I lost my job in December and my depression got worse.
Then for some reason while at the peak of my depression in mid-January I started thinking about giving trading another try. There was only about $800 dollars in my trading account so I figure why not. I have much more in my saving account but since I am unemployed it's my emergency fund. Win or lose I didn't really have any expectation. Maybe just a few $50 buck profit here and there to keep me afloat. At the very least maybe just enough to pay for a meal.
That was about 3 weeks ago and now my account is at $4600 which is about a 500% profit. I'm absolutely dumbfounded. Either I was lucky or I actually had a functioning trading system. Most of my trades were winners too. I had lost a lot of money struggling as a trader before. The only things that had changed was I started focusing on high probability trades setup. My depression also made me dumb to the point where I no longer try to predict where the market might go. That helped me stop taking gambling trades that realistically only had a 50/50 chance of working.
On Monday I almost had a disaster and it finally click on me what my high probability trades are. I changed the rules and yesterday I made $800. Today I made $600. Those were the big winners, most of daily profits had been between $100-$300. I think I have a strong perspective now on how the market works. I kept thinking how it was possible my trades are working when before they didn't. I realized that the rules I had in the past didn't really work. Now I have new rules which are working.
However I'm still depressed but slowly recovering. Not taking medication. Trading still feel tough. Despite profits I still doubt myself.
Is it possible for me to make this a career? I'm starting to scale back a bit. I still have a lot more to work on to be perfect. Like taking as much profit from a trend as possible.
I'm aiming for at minimum $50 daily average profit as that pays the rent, bills, and lunch. But I want to see myself scaling up.
Then for some reason while at the peak of my depression in mid-January I started thinking about giving trading another try. There was only about $800 dollars in my trading account so I figure why not. I have much more in my saving account but since I am unemployed it's my emergency fund. Win or lose I didn't really have any expectation. Maybe just a few $50 buck profit here and there to keep me afloat. At the very least maybe just enough to pay for a meal.
That was about 3 weeks ago and now my account is at $4600 which is about a 500% profit. I'm absolutely dumbfounded. Either I was lucky or I actually had a functioning trading system. Most of my trades were winners too. I had lost a lot of money struggling as a trader before. The only things that had changed was I started focusing on high probability trades setup. My depression also made me dumb to the point where I no longer try to predict where the market might go. That helped me stop taking gambling trades that realistically only had a 50/50 chance of working.
On Monday I almost had a disaster and it finally click on me what my high probability trades are. I changed the rules and yesterday I made $800. Today I made $600. Those were the big winners, most of daily profits had been between $100-$300. I think I have a strong perspective now on how the market works. I kept thinking how it was possible my trades are working when before they didn't. I realized that the rules I had in the past didn't really work. Now I have new rules which are working.
However I'm still depressed but slowly recovering. Not taking medication. Trading still feel tough. Despite profits I still doubt myself.
Is it possible for me to make this a career? I'm starting to scale back a bit. I still have a lot more to work on to be perfect. Like taking as much profit from a trend as possible.
I'm aiming for at minimum $50 daily average profit as that pays the rent, bills, and lunch. But I want to see myself scaling up.
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