Quote from Landis82:
As a former floor trader of 10 years in NYC, I totally disagree with your "analysis".
You point to what YOU PERCEIVE is the reality of this particular trader's situation - - - having to downgrade his standard of living, but that may not be the case given the amount of self-esteem that comes from trading for 20 years and the resultant shame that comes from "blowing-up".. . . being deemed successful by his peers, family, and friends for so long, only to then see it disappear in one day. He obviously couldn't deal with the "consequences" - - - but that doesn't necessarily mean that it revolved around a downgrade in lifestyle. That is a rather spurious ASSumption on your part, is it not?
Did it ever occur to you that perhaps one of the biggest reasons why he got up in the morning disappeared. That, unfortunately had become his "identity". If you've never been there on the floor, and in that kind of environment and community . . . you have absolutely NO IDEA what you are talking about.
Your post implies that this was some sort of "silver-spooned" kid that had been groomed with kid-gloves . . . Most likely you couldn't be more wrong as he probably worked his way up from a runner on the floor, to phone clerk, to broker, and local.
So easy for you to "judge" someone else, let alone define what REAL problems are.
How convenient of you . . . We should all be so lucky to be "judged" by you and your worldly knowledge.
You just pissed on someone's grave that you've never met.
Congratulations.
Well put. I think Pabst, myself, and whoever he quoted might look at the 'biz a little differently. When you clerk on the floor for locals and get to know that culture, its just different. I don't know how to explain it otherwise.
But as mentioned above, it becomes your identity, who you are. It becomes dangerous when you consider the same things that made you who you are...risk taker, balls, being fearless...can also be your downfall. Your whole trading career you've made a name for yourself being a guy who can 'hold his nuts'.....but maybe one day you'll hold 'em a little too long and realize on the close you have absolutely nothing to your name. Everything you've worked for is gone...the Benz (or whatever) you paid cash for after a good month last year, will have to be sold, like everything else you own, including your seat, to make your margin and give you at least something to live on.
"making it back" when its that bad is almost impossible. Because its a real mind fuck when you know that the characteristics that made you money before (having balls, taking risk in the market)....are the same ones that got you rolled. Think you'd be a little gun shy? Unable to take even the obvious trades you'd cash in on before.
I don't really keep track but I'm a smaller local and I think my worst day ever is losing the same amount as what I would call 'a decent month'. Getting back in there never has anything to do with whats going on in the market, only when will you be able to trade with confidence again. I could definitley see how a horrible day could snowball into a low point where someone just doesn't see a way out. I like to think it would never happen to me because I try not to put myself in that position, and I'm generally considered more conservative....but really if you trade any type of size in these markets or take any type of real risk....anything could conceivably happen.
A few weeks ago there was a move in my market....when some bank went to market (supposedly it was an accident) with a huge order. Rumor has it, it was supposed to be a limit order and ended up a market order for a huge amount in a thin market. In seconds we broke 100 pts....about 5x what would be consider a very volitile day. I was caught on the wrong side and made the trade of my life to lose only about 5gs. Literally, if I had been a split second slower that loss would have been about 70g. No way would I have killled myself but I def. would have been very depressed and probably would have had to take some time off.
I'm younger, so I'd have handled it better. But I could see how someone who's worked a lot longer than me, for a lot more, with others depending on them (family) could take a loss in a similar situation that truly would seem unbearable in every way.
*edit....I guess all I'm saying is for bigger scalpers and locals....with size we trade and risk we take there is always some outside chance of a catastrophic loss happening before you even realize whats going on. Think market crash, terrorism, etc, when you have over 100 lots on....crazy shit can happen.....and, having taken my share of losers, I can tell you there's a feeling of "shell shock" that is very, very bad...when nothing but making the same trades you make day in and day out...suddenly and quickly leads to terrible losses....its just a 'falling off a cliff' feeling that can't be described unless you've been there. The mind fuck is knowing the only way back is trading the same way that got you burned in the first place. Because as a local or scalper you are playing the odds....betting against the highly improbably....betting against the black swan. Its a profitable gig but there's always that fear knowing that every once in awhile the highly improbable does happen.
Cheers