Today was the worst day I've had.
I made so many mistakes. I was shaken out too quickly. I lacked discipline, patience, and an understanding of the trend. I had the opportunity to make THOUSANDS today. But my lack of skill ruined me.
I was trading HPQ today! Yes, I know..... Their stupid CEO resigned today and it was the talk of the town.....blah, blah, blah Well, I made hundreds, lost them, made them back, and then lost them and so much more. At about 3:02pm I bought 2000 (yes, a STUPID decision to trade this many shares) at $21.66. At 3:07pm, I sold them at $21.55. That's a loss of .11 cents. As you could imagine, I felt crushed. Unable to continue. For the first time, in a while, I felt defeated. Done. Finished. Like it was a hole that I couldn't come back from. I can't imagine what I would have done to make it back.
Prior to that the day seemed almost like any other. I made $160 and then lost it. Made it back, and lost it. I felt great because I just kept coming back. Hell, in the office, I've been know to make some pretty spectacular comebacks. But today was different. The loss came too fast. I was in the money about 6 cents from where I was, but then it came down to my entry. I had the opportunity then to take a flat, but I held it. First it went against me 1 cent, then 2. Suddenly, I felt something I hadn't felt in a while, ......fear. For a minute or so I just kept thinking, "This sucks. This sucks. THIS SUCKS!" But by the time I realized I needed to get out, it was too late.
So here I am. With a loss that I couldn't of ever imagined. But I only have one person to blame. That's me. I should have had more discipline. I should not have forgotten the trend. I should have traded a smaller share size. But I guess I needed to experience this.
I lost $266 and spent $220 losing it. I had 49 buy executions, 43 buy executions, and 88,600 shares traded.
Tomorrow will be a better day!