Go to about 3 minutes and 9 seconds of this bad boy, and all will be clear:
So it was the pain, the illusion of pain, or the truth of the trade? I'm guessing the pain. Quite a change in conviction. This is why I am not "averaging" into my losing NQ long. I see how deep this rabbit hole can go, so I have to prepare for it fiscally.
Good to know you have smartened up.