Quote from axeman:
"FEAR about uncertainty is my problem and I can't get around it."
No....your problem is trading without an edge.
I cringe when I hear stories like this, and from what you
have posted so far, its obvious you have no business trading AT ALL.
Not trying to be mean or harsh, but keep what money you have
left and go back to a real job with a paycheck.
If your passionate about beating this game, go buy yourself
a copy of Wealthlab and try ideas every night until you
find a REAL EDGE.
Simulate an equity curve with commission and slippage built in.
When you have one you like, then test the system live
and measure real life slippage.
Re-simulate using your real life slippage numbers.
If the system is still good, and you have objectively proven
this system is REAL and not curve fitted garbage, then
AND ONLY THEN, start trading it with some real size.
Or dont take my advice, and keep losing money.
The above advice is easily worth all the money you have left.
Good luck...
peace
axeman
PS - give yourself at least 5 years to find your first kick
ass system if you can only work on this part time.
Yes, it could easily take you this long part time.