Firstly, spread shouldnt be that wide, broker is screwing u MB trading is at 3pips right now, if u look at the current market volatility it is actually very cheap vs when the volatility is around 30/40pips.
Secondly, if u this confused u have a long way to go in forex and should go back to whichever market u were trading and slowly phase in fx trading. Then when u are fully comfortable u can be full in fx trading but right now u are on very shaky ground.