I have to count my lucky stars to finish January the way I did. For an entire month I struggled until the very end when I closed it with my best back-to-back performance since April 2001. The princess's smile shined upon me and I closed the month on a high note.
Let's be serious here, even with the bail out, it is safe to say that I can't count on those kind of games to save my bacon, and I absolutely must play a consistent game. Until the four game winning streak that closed the month out, I was playing at .500 level, that won't get it done. I have to be more patient with my shot selection, I have to more work off daily charts, and I have to milk my winners more.
What kept me from being a legit contender for top tier has always been my inability to hold on to winners. I have never ever held a full 1000 share position through a quarter point wiggle (hell, 10 cents wiggle for that matter) for a full point profit without paring out. Without a break through in that mentality, I will never be able to trade bigger sizes. When a trade feels good, I have to hold on, and confidence is everything when you are in the money.
This will be a very tough year for traders, and I have to think survival before anything else. I have not got any consistent scoring from any bread and butter sectors, and I have to keep my composure until I am back in sync with the market. Currently, only one out of six traders on my squad is profitable (excluding myself), and I am looking for a 50% survival rate for recruits. It is highly unlikely that I will make a dime from those guys during the first six months of the year, or any serious money for that matter this year, but if by the end of the year, somehow someway I can put together a profitable squad and build from it, I will be in a very very good situation.
In the mean time, I must continue to further fine tune my own trading, as while the title of a manager does sound good, it is the pride of being the best player I can possibly be that means most to me. I really want to prove to Mrs F that one day I will be better than her and her idols at this firm for that matter. The feeling of being totally outclassed is eating me alive. I need to be able to HOLD SIZE, and at this point, there really isn't anything I can do to push myself, I just have to let it come to me. In Mrs F's eyes I am at least a few years away from going top tier, but I know I am one breakout away from being an legit contender. Considering that I rejected her idea of co-hosting the squad, the fact that her 15-20K lead over me YTD (and entire last year she beat me by 25K) is sticking out like a stake through my heart, despite of the way she feels like an older cousin to me away from the game, I really want to smack her down with some size as she is a very realistic benchmark for me to eventually surpass, I even told her so as I will never ever be happy with anything less than top tier.
The competitive spirit is haunting me. I don't know exactly what I must do to get there, but I will be plugging away with every drop of blood and sweat. I hope one day I will be able to make that top 30 list on a regular basis, as I truly believe it is my rightful spot. In the mean time, I must continue to fight for my survival as I continue to build experience that will eventually lead to a breakout.
January / December
P&L Before Commissions: 11994 / 16943
P&L After Commissions: 2923 / 8838
Shooting %: 46.3% / 54.85%
Cent Per Share: 0.036 / 0.067
Volume Each Way: 328000 / 257400
W/L: 13-9 / 18-3
Let's be serious here, even with the bail out, it is safe to say that I can't count on those kind of games to save my bacon, and I absolutely must play a consistent game. Until the four game winning streak that closed the month out, I was playing at .500 level, that won't get it done. I have to be more patient with my shot selection, I have to more work off daily charts, and I have to milk my winners more.
What kept me from being a legit contender for top tier has always been my inability to hold on to winners. I have never ever held a full 1000 share position through a quarter point wiggle (hell, 10 cents wiggle for that matter) for a full point profit without paring out. Without a break through in that mentality, I will never be able to trade bigger sizes. When a trade feels good, I have to hold on, and confidence is everything when you are in the money.
This will be a very tough year for traders, and I have to think survival before anything else. I have not got any consistent scoring from any bread and butter sectors, and I have to keep my composure until I am back in sync with the market. Currently, only one out of six traders on my squad is profitable (excluding myself), and I am looking for a 50% survival rate for recruits. It is highly unlikely that I will make a dime from those guys during the first six months of the year, or any serious money for that matter this year, but if by the end of the year, somehow someway I can put together a profitable squad and build from it, I will be in a very very good situation.
In the mean time, I must continue to further fine tune my own trading, as while the title of a manager does sound good, it is the pride of being the best player I can possibly be that means most to me. I really want to prove to Mrs F that one day I will be better than her and her idols at this firm for that matter. The feeling of being totally outclassed is eating me alive. I need to be able to HOLD SIZE, and at this point, there really isn't anything I can do to push myself, I just have to let it come to me. In Mrs F's eyes I am at least a few years away from going top tier, but I know I am one breakout away from being an legit contender. Considering that I rejected her idea of co-hosting the squad, the fact that her 15-20K lead over me YTD (and entire last year she beat me by 25K) is sticking out like a stake through my heart, despite of the way she feels like an older cousin to me away from the game, I really want to smack her down with some size as she is a very realistic benchmark for me to eventually surpass, I even told her so as I will never ever be happy with anything less than top tier.
The competitive spirit is haunting me. I don't know exactly what I must do to get there, but I will be plugging away with every drop of blood and sweat. I hope one day I will be able to make that top 30 list on a regular basis, as I truly believe it is my rightful spot. In the mean time, I must continue to fight for my survival as I continue to build experience that will eventually lead to a breakout.
January / December
P&L Before Commissions: 11994 / 16943
P&L After Commissions: 2923 / 8838
Shooting %: 46.3% / 54.85%
Cent Per Share: 0.036 / 0.067
Volume Each Way: 328000 / 257400
W/L: 13-9 / 18-3
Did I say love is the greatest strength? Ever since he cut off contact with the other girl, he made $3000+ 2 out of 2 games.