#1 This is an anonymous board only to those who stay anonymous. I have used my real name here, and the story is real, and the truth about it is out. The people involved know what I did, and have for along time now.
#2 My attraction to the market is more academic than material. Its like a puzzle for me. Certainly I wouldn't mind having lots of money but thats not why I'm attracted to the markets. Unfortunately, instead of trying to figure out the markets using backtesting software, I did it with real money. I lied because I didn't want to disappoint the first partner among other reasons.
#3 I have had times when I had consistent gains. In fact, I'll add a little bit to the story here:
There was a time just before I quit trading for the second partner, that I started to make money. I turned 400,000 into 1.2 million in about 2 weeks averaging 30 round trips a day (NQ).
When I reached 1.2 million, I was offered a situation where I could get increased leverage. I accepted and lost most of the account in 1 day due to not being able to cut a loss and the leverage was way too much. I only had 300,000 left and I was demoralized, and quit trading.
So, I am now using Wealthlab and backtesting these same techniques that I used during profitable times.
My take on the situation is that I am very lucky that I got caught way over leveraged and lost the money, because otherwise I wouldn't be learning any lessons and making changes. Unfortunately it was other peoples money that I lost.