Thanks for your patient posting, it's finally beginning to sink in.
Then again, you get company here on your Journal. That must be worth something and give you a good distraction while you calmly go about the process of making money.
In fact, your're trading would probably be better if you weren't keeping the Journal, because you wouldn't be distracted with having to defend your trading philosophy or positions.
But then ET would be missing a Classic, so that can't be a good thing, . Eventually this market will bottom, but there's no point in buying until then.