Awesome. You come across as a smart and patient dude (I assume). You'll make it.
It's been a long, rough four years, honestly.
Funny you should mention patience and "smart(ness)".
Trading had been a real journey of self-discovery for me, and one of the two areas I discovered causing me most of my difficulties was my lack of patience which led to FOMO and sometimes verged on YOLO.
The other area was my ego. I thought I was smarter than the market and smarter than I am in fact.
I was and remain very serious about this remark below that I made a week or two back
This hasn't been easy for me and I wish I could say it now is. Every day I know I have it in me to undo everything I've worked for this summer. I feel I turned a corner near the end of May. I know and respect the fact that I could easily find myself back on the other side of that turn. Each morning before I load my trading account, I remind myself to be patient, stay humble and submit to the rules of the trading plan I've set for myself.
I wish I could say it has gotten easier. It hasn't. For me every day is struggle against some urge to commit self sabotage. That is why I don't post while I am actively scalping. I'm afraid posting during my very active period could affect how I manage my trading. I listen to music I find calming and not distracting through headphones to block out other distractions.
For me this is a real struggle. But at the moment, there is nothing I'd rather do more.
