Cashclay - I forgot what the statistics are exactly, but more than 90% of new traders fail. I think it's closer to 95%. So in order for you to succeed, you have to be the top 5%. Even the top 5% of new traders, some of them might only break even and then quit because they don't like it. You have to do your homework and get every piece of information you can on the subject and paper trade, backtest, then trade with a small size to see if what you're doing works, and how you can handle your emotions. Getting emotional over losing trades or missed opportunities will hurt you badly. Believe me, I've been there, and any successful trader on here will tell you that they've damaged their accounts by being overly emotional, which seems like how you are now. I can see the frustration in your text. I know it is much easier to say not to be emotional than to actually practice it, but if you get emotional, there's a high probability that you will start doing the "fuck it" trades. What I mean by that is, you will say "fuck it, I'm buying/shorting here even though I missed my opportunity because every time I do, my bias is almost always confirmed after the trade goes my way anyway."
All of what you described is part of trading, and you have to be strong emotionally. If you can't, then this profession is not for you. But if you go in with the attitude like "I'm going to do whatever it takes to become successful and I will learn from this", you are increasing your probability of becoming a great profitable trader, and then you will see your luck change. I use the word "luck" loosely.. but it does seem like luck has a way of finding the diligent traders, and pretty soon, you might find that whatever you are doing just seems to always be going your way for some reason or another once you build your intuition of how the markets move.
Don't be discouraged. Keep asking questions and take all the constructive criticism as feedback on how to trade.
For every person that buys, someone is taking the short or selling, and vice versa. This is basically a zero sum game, and we as traders are trying to take money from other traders... and the market will take your money in a heart beat if you are not in the right mindset.