All that means is you lost a lot of testosterone production, and finally realized you are mortal and are going to DIE soon. So you started taking life seriously.
You got old. There's no "light".
Well, we all die and lose testosterone production, that's pure fact for every male.
But I truly broke out of my average trading, gambling, rut....when I left all those youthful, energetic, gusto and hype things behind me.
You can kind of say success steps come in stages in life, within the greater picture book. You can't rush God's plan, but you can have faith in it and the process,