Does anyone actually talk?
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How'd you decide to be where you are?
I didn't . I was born there . Moved away but when I got hit by a car and lost my job I had to move back home to survive it took all my savings to live and pay for the (second) back surgery then I was still in pain and required a cervical disc replacement in my neck so now I'm living out of the land my dad has owned (from income from a business I helped a lot with) just sort of trying to catch my breath and figure out what's my next move. I'm still ptsd some days I can't sit in front of the computer without my head screaming at me basically saying it ain't happening I have to move.. still processing the trauma I guess. Scared to fuck thinking I'll paralyze myself in pain again i need to book a therapist or start drinking again and go ramble to some bartender
Where do you live again? Everywhere you live is going to be the same. The people that you wish can shut up talk too much and the people that you want to hear more from are way too quiet. What you need is inner peace.
Sorry to hear about your accident. You will be all right. It just takes time to heal.
How's the physical pain from your injuries, past, present, and expected near term?
Are you mobile to drive?
Got a vehicle?
Yes, thank you. I am far better off than I was this time last year. That's a wise statement. I do have times of tremendous inner peace and then I'll tweak a muscle or stay up all night coding and mess up my sleep schedule but I love working this way.. hacking away on projects on my own sweet time not under the direction of any boss type figure or expectations from people, etc. just a giant machine I sell abstract stuff to (contracts, etc)
It's pretty good, the disc replacement in my neck was a real game changer, the nerve conduit was basically halved in width and when the awesome surgeon fixed it i could suddenly feel all the things from peripheral nervous system with far more resolution.. if I want to, i can get up and run 2 miles but a bout of covid a few months ago really took some pep out of my step, I do have a vehicle I do drive its not ideal as I always feel im about to be slammed into again but it is what it is. I have a support system in this small town but its hard for me to share the worldview of smalltown . The neck is pretty good now, it pops more but doesnt hurt. If I have to drive too much sitting really fucks with me because driving is just like sitting on a mobile couch but more dangerously . Been thinking about getting a procedure to remove some upper body weight to remove pressure on the lower spine, I dont know why I've been delaying, the procedure only costs as much as a good months worth of trading income.
I really gotta laugh at some of these people on here who tell me a model is worthless because it only tells you what the market is already telling you... that's false, the entire point of a model is forecasting beyond the present moment.. I've been making a lot of headway on the software to do that. It would be easier if I had someone to colaborate with, like testing the software, discussions, etc . The model doesnt create automated trades it calibrates to the market , calculates hedging ratios, I need to implement hedge orders with IB, etc.
Sure but if *I* wear that I go to jail.