Quote from nitro:
IMHO,
The level of honesty you are displaying is a good sign. These will be trying times for you - we've all been there.
One thing I will say - this question does not belong in chit-chat. It is an honest to goodness question that deserves respect and real answers. Request to have it moved into psychology or the trading forum.
BTW, if you believe a hypotheses, then use the "scientific method." Stay away from here for three months. Don't even look at the place. See if that helps. This "scientific method" approach is very powerful not just in this experiment, but in anything, i.e., TRADING. Just be honest and be very carefull to write everything down so that you can look at the records and derive statistics.
Finally, if you have not read the "Zone" books, now might not be a bad time. It won't solve all your "problems" or even any of them, but it may put you in the right state of mind to other avenues, which is WAY more important.
Best of luck,
nitro