For how many years?
depression
- Thread starter stochastix
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For how many years?
So, what is your plan to take it with you?
you bury yourself with it like a pharaoh.
or you give it away such that many lives prosper while you look up from below (traders probably don’t deserve to go to heaven)
Hello Illini Trader,
No plans, my loves ones will know exactly what to do with my millions once I leave.
That is darn harsh. Traders are just what they are, trying to trade what they see. Who deserves to go to hell are the fucking algo programmers who decide what traders see. Like, that because interest rates go up, growth stocks MUST GO DOWN.
This isn't the fucking 1990s with sock puppets. Just because Tesla is some hot new chick on the block with EV, does NOT mean it's P/E ratio needs to go to 420.
Algos, algos...If there is a hell for computer programming, ala TRON, then that is where THEY are going.
But you said your money is going to solve all of your problems, every single one of them, so isn't your money going to let you live forever?
Hello Millionaire,
Living forever is not a problem I have. I can not live forever.
I've certainly been in this cycle several times since I have been trading full-time. In fact, it probably was always quite prevalent in my life but I only noticed it more when I was trading because there is more time alone. Now that I have had so much more experience with this I realize the following about depression for me:
- self-absorbed thought and victimized self-talk. "This ALWAYS happens to me!!" "Why is life life such a struggle?" "I am so sick of losing!" etc etc.
- can cultivate a part of you to first observe the negative self-talk. It will be filled with victimizing statements, self absorbed thoughts as if _everything_ is wrong or a failure.
- once you can observe it with your own internal observer you can learn to interject and redirect the thoughts before they complete and build. For me this is an internal conversation where I point out reality in a more logical light.
- spend time in nature to get out of my self-absorbed thoughts. Oh look at those playful fantails, how much fun they are having trying to get food. I like how they flirt through the branches of this old forest. It pulls me out of being self-absorbed to remember there is a world out there filled with beauty.
- go for an hour+ walk with the dog in the forest / beach. Watching the dog play and be happy doing something so simple is a great way to put my current problem in perspective. I can also see this when we play tug or something. It is so simple to grab a rope and have her grab the other end but she loves it. Life can be enjoyable with simple surroundings. Dog remind me this. She is in the moment and not projecting the future or living in the past.
- meditate for at least 20m a day. Great way to recharge the mind and feel rested. Once you get practiced in it, you can put yourself in that mindset throughout the day more easily.
- a lot of my personal discomfort is from lack of acceptance with reality that is caused by initial projection into the future. If I can let go of attachments to the future then this struggle virtually disappears.
With kind regards,
MK
- self-absorbed thought and victimized self-talk. "This ALWAYS happens to me!!" "Why is life life such a struggle?" "I am so sick of losing!" etc etc.
- can cultivate a part of you to first observe the negative self-talk. It will be filled with victimizing statements, self absorbed thoughts as if _everything_ is wrong or a failure.
- once you can observe it with your own internal observer you can learn to interject and redirect the thoughts before they complete and build. For me this is an internal conversation where I point out reality in a more logical light.
- spend time in nature to get out of my self-absorbed thoughts. Oh look at those playful fantails, how much fun they are having trying to get food. I like how they flirt through the branches of this old forest. It pulls me out of being self-absorbed to remember there is a world out there filled with beauty.
- go for an hour+ walk with the dog in the forest / beach. Watching the dog play and be happy doing something so simple is a great way to put my current problem in perspective. I can also see this when we play tug or something. It is so simple to grab a rope and have her grab the other end but she loves it. Life can be enjoyable with simple surroundings. Dog remind me this. She is in the moment and not projecting the future or living in the past.
- meditate for at least 20m a day. Great way to recharge the mind and feel rested. Once you get practiced in it, you can put yourself in that mindset throughout the day more easily.
- a lot of my personal discomfort is from lack of acceptance with reality that is caused by initial projection into the future. If I can let go of attachments to the future then this struggle virtually disappears.
With kind regards,
MK
You have shown great growth. All the best! You are doing great.