GH2:
If you are trading for a living, then you will feel the pressure, plain and simple. The only traders at my firm who doesn't feel like crap after a big down day are those who have been at it for such a long time they already made millions, and even then, if the number is large enough, or a few of those string together into a bad streak, frustration goes up, stress goes up immediately.
Forget these "trading in the zone" books, it is one thing to talk about psychology and emotion on paper, it is the other thing when you have rent to pay and you just blew your pay period with a size down day. If you don't feel like crap after a blown out, you are probably not a serious trader.
What is with this "positive expectancy" thing? Hello? Even I consider myself to be a newbie and until I do this for a few years profitably, I have no track record and can blow up at any given time. Market evolves, your strategy stops working, you blow up, just like that. When you are new to this business, the most important thing on the back of your head should be survival, and you should have a strong sense of urgency. By the time you figured out that your plan is not working, you already blew half of your account. I know for a fact that I am capable of winning every single game I play, and because I am human and I make mistakes, that is not possible, but that doesn't mean it is ok if I drop a game, it is not ok, every loss must be taken seriously so you pump yourself up to get the next one, that's how you avoid losing streaks, that's how you force yourself to play at a high level. If I lose a game, it is my fault, it is not market's fault, I missed shots I should have made and I took shots I shouldn't have took, take it personally and make it a mission to get the next one. Every day is an opportunity to make a lot of money, and if you are not pushing yourself to get better, you never will.
Why do I share my "secret" (first of all a lot of people at my firm uses more or less a variation of sector trading)? Because I have sat next to many successful traders at my firm and watched how they trade, and I know for a fact that I will not be able to trade their style even if I tried. There are only so many different trading styles out there, and ultimately you will take some ideas from each and mesh it into something you are comfortable with. You will NEVER EVER be able to copy another person's strategy because your personality is different, and you will execute very differently even if you both are trading what is essentially the same strategy.
By putting up the journal, I want people with doubts about day trading to see that it can be done, as I am by no means a super size trader yet, so other members on this board can watch me grow and provide helpful comments and suggestions along the way. In the case I blow up, people will be able to see step-by-step how I blew up and know what not to do, although in reality, even if you read all the day trading books in the world, every now and then, you will still make every single mistake in the book, because you are human, and emotion is always a factor. I find it funny that people wrote "I would have saved a lot of money had I read insert_book_title_here, bull crap, we all know what not to do, yet we still do it until we get hurt then learn from painful mistakes. I want to provide this board on a different perspective of trading, the perks of a prop. firm, and a different style of trading, I already made quite a few friends on this board, and I plan to continue to do so.
Since when does trading success is measured by character? Even if it does, I think I have been brutally honest on every single question people ever asked me on this board or e-mail, why shoot the messenger for bringing the truth? The reality is the trader IS judged by the size of his account, if you are good at it, you have to have something to show for it, and nothing can replace the cold hard P&L.