Absolutely, I was gambling which is why I lost the 12k, but I did so knowingly because I was overeager to grow account even at great risk. I thought I was the shit because I had several wins in a row with almost 0 errors. I realize this was incredibly stupid now. My performance is actually really good, considering I hear most traders claim 50% win rate is good. My problem is just when the going gets good I get arrogant and end up deviating from my strategy. Market kicked my ass and flattened my ego, and I totally deserved it.
Self honesty is an important ingredient. I think by definition, in short term directional trading, the fundamental goal is to postion yourself where you are risking a little amount of money for a potentially large payoff. For example, if you are bullish and the price penetrates support by a predetermined amount, this is a very good indication that your timing and analysis are off, perhaps epically.
2% stop loss seems aggressive starting out. .5% or less until consistently profitable, perhaps at least three months, before risking what aggressive, long term profitable professionals risk on a short term trade.
To paraphrase what the referree says before a fight, protect your capital at all times.