hi, i am new to this forum but not new to ES trading. I have been trading ES since 2016 and blew up my account in late 2017 after being greedy and also undisciplined. Since trading from home and my biggest difficulty is treating trading professionally and taking it on more as a gambler. I have amassed quite an experience having spent considerable time in front of the screen both real and on paper. Even though on good days i make upwards of 5k in few minutes, still i tend to have bad days where i lose it most of the winnings. I seem to have several weaknesses, which being alone while trading seems to be the issue. If trading with a few fellas would generate that professionalism. But i have not been able to meet independent traders in my area where i live.
So my question is how do independent traders treat it like a real job trading from home and spent time preparing for the day. ( because with way i am trading i feel like i need some convictions from experienced traders that what i am doing is normal trading method, there is always that feeling that i am still an amateur). Btw my trading methods are profitable and i am able to read the market direction both up/down and also entry and exit price areas quite efficiently. Still always have a feeling that i am not yet professional in trading just an amateur.