I just found out today that I only have one enemy.
I didn't know him very well, the image was vague in my mind, the image of a fleeting monster. I didn't want to see the monster, I was trying to avoid him subconsciously. I know this enemy has scared me for years, but I hated to confront him. I know he is very very scary.
I have delayed confronting this monster for too long. By accident I caught a glimpse of this enemy today. He is indeed scary, he was laughing at me while I was paralyzed out of fear. I couldn't move, I couldn't lift my hand, I couldn't lift my finger, then I saw this monster looking at me, laughing at me.
Finally, I saw the monster.
Strangely enough, I feel relief. But will I be able to fight the monster? I don't know. Maybe I know, but I don't want to claim victory before the battle begins.