$141.44 ROKU 191122P120 -$0.40 $45.00
Out with a small profit. What an amazing adventure.
ROKU's been quite the education. Longest trade I've been in yet, just a bit short of two months, and a wrestling match all the way. I can tell that I'm going to need a few repeats to really lock these skills down, but I've already bitten a chunk out of my #1 goal in options - which is to learn how to manage whatever comes along during a trade (goal #2 is to know how to trade well in any type of market - with the caveat that "cash is also a position".) Overall, that was just wonderful... but I'll admit that this sweet
tzimmes had more than a few
Carolina Reapers buried in it. Frankly, it scared the hell out of me at times. Not that this is a bad thing; in fact, coming face-to-face with that fear (one I didn't know was there until I started trading) and beating it has meant a lot to me. Can't claim that it's all gone, but I now KNOW that I can take $5k+ worth of heat and keep going - which is a certainty I didn't have before.
(In the military, I'd been told again and again that "nobody knows how they'll act when the bullets start flying." I knew from the start, and it's exactly how I did act - calmly, rationally, and according to the training I got. But with this? I had no idea. So it was damn good to find out.)
On a peripheral note: sometimes (often) I'm a total pain in the ass to myself. I mean, really. With what I've learned so far, I could just sell premium on indexes when vol is high, collect anywhere from 20-100% of it, and... you know... be happy. Right?
Wrong. You know what I do with all this incredibly cool stuff I've learned instead of a happy-happy-joy-joy dance? "
OK, got that. What's the next challenge?"

Some people's children, I tell you...
So I'm busting my brain on Sinclair (but damn, he's actually a good read), playing with a BSM model (having built a nice version in Excel wasn't enough because... um, because don't ask stupid questions I can't answer. So built one in Python as well), learning to trade futures, and trying to figure out Market Profile and order flow. And "taking a break" isn't in the cards because I kinda feel like I
am. It's as if I got a hold of a cheat code for life.
I wonder what "normal" people do for fun.