"I suppose I expected to blow up sooner or later, but a part of me wanted to think that I could be exempt from the 95%"
All of yor being has to be determined to master the game or it will never happen. The game is everchanging for the very simple reason that everything is everchanging. Add to that that the players , percievers of the game, are ever changing and you have an interesting game. You have to find threads that run through it.
Futurestrader71 presents his usual excellent advice.
Nitro"s posts are critical for you, not knowing about S&P rebal is akin to a NASCAR driver not knowing it's raining. As isolated as daytrading appears to be it does exist within the larger reality. Everything you can imagine exist within the next larger reality until you can't imagine it anymore. The markets are no different. When Soros whacked the pound he had a clear view of the next largest reality.
You have to look in the mirror and see the truth about yourself:
The barriers to entry are nil, for a few bucks and a computer they even let you in and you don't know your ass from a hole in the ground about the game, in fact you very likely lost $$ on MSFT to some of the worlds best practitioners of the game. You got tackled by Ray Lewis who gets paid to hurt people. You have to see this truth. This doesn't mean you can't play, it just means you need to learn.Your determination has to be to learn.
Framing the questions leads to the solution logic, frame them properly and honestly or you won't extract relavent answers from your work and only have to do it over, keep your ego out of it, that is an accomplishment. At this point take a break, focus completely somewhere else just to break the continuity of your perception of the game .
edit:just saw ft71"s post re: focusing on the money, he couldn't be more right. It is the play that counts, excellence of play will create the $$. The fact that the points happen to be fungible into coin of the realm has to be incidental to the play while you are in it. Not everybody has the emotional makeup to arrive at that point of detachment .