Ego /On
Although today was a work day, I was able to fire off 8 opening trades, 7 of which were scalps. 6 scalps were profitable, with a small loss on the other one. They were all counter-trend trades. All of these trades followed specific entry setups. All of my 4 morning trades followed specific exit rules. I violated my rules badly in the afternoon, near RTH close trades. More on that later.
Today was an exceptional learning day that will guide my trading forward.
The first 2 trades were based on a context-price action mismatch. Seemingly out the blue, volume picked up substantially in NQ. I decided to short MNQ on that basis, but noticed for all the action, bids retreated slowly. It appeared there was underlying support. I exited 3 minutes later for a 31 tick profit. Then the other futures started to weaken substantially. 4 minutes later, I shorted MNQ again, only to see the bids become even more resilient to being hit. 3 ticks from my target, the current bid seemed impenetrable, but before I could change my order, a massive push by the sellers gave me the execution. This trade lasted about a minute and a half and I took 25 ticks. Had I been on the ball, I would have listened to the market demanding that I go long at that point.
Although I should know better than to fade the stronger stocks, I couldn’t help myself with MAR. On the second impulse move down one the 1 minute bar, without progress being made to the upside, I went short. After the action started to slow, I covered for a profit of $.15. The trade lasted for about 90 seconds. It was noteworthy how responsive the inside market was to my 100 share order on my entry order, exit orders, and some cancelled orders. This is an area for future study.
My last morning trade was to short MES on a reversion to mean trade. I was stopped out on a time stop for a 4 tick profit. This trade last 5 minutes, which is longer than my rules allow.
Ego /Off
I put on a directional butterfly in ES puts thinking the prior month’s high should be a formidable resistance area, especially how quickly and far the market has come back. It will be many years for some industries to come back. Consumer spending patterns, after perhaps a brief pent up splurge, will likely remain suppressed for quite some time on job security concerns. All this will not play out in the duration of this trade, but I can’t be the only trader thinking this way.
Ego /Crushed
Ok, I took some reversion to mean trades that were intended to be scalps and ignored my exit rules. Then I added on. Twice. The only way I can suffer a big loss is not following my money management rules. The only way for me to not follow my rules and avoid big losses is to greatly underutilize my capital, causing tremendous long term under performance. In a world where a valuable commodity can trade negative $16.00 per barrel, zero interest rates, implicit or explicit Government to dealer backstop guarantees, and a funding facility and I am playing games with money management? Again? and Again? The profits it seemed like I made are only borrowed from future losses. These profits will be paid back plus a big interest rate if I remain undisciplined. I’ve seen it before in myself and in others. I may have a low pain threshold, but to be boiled slowly alive with underperformance is also futile.
I know all my rules. Follow them. To that end, all futures trades must be posted with a reason, exit, and stop. The trade size must be large enough that a stop loss would represent .8% of capital.
My account balance is down to 29.6k on unfavorable price moves against my options positions.
Attached below is my trade log and Daily PnL:
Edit: No more counter-trend or reversion to mean type of trading for me. I have to trade with a trend as defined either by the current price relative to the open, daily or weekly bar breakout or price action according to chart I’m looking at.