Quote from trade555:
No I am not kidding. I love the way it felt just sinking in my seat paralyzed and all I could do is short more. My broker even called so I didn't pick up the phone. I felt alive like I was a part of something big. My wife has never made me feel like that.
You sound like a dope fien. Sell the farm to get into rehab and go to Gamblers Anon. Seriously, if you are being honest with this post, this is what you did, this is what you felt like, you have a serious problem. You should not be trading. Its crack for you. Crack Kills. If you can't do this you should give your wife the opportunity to leave you. You do not have the right to throw her life away along with your own.