Ares
You seem like a nice fellow and your story is touching BUT please understand that this business takes years to truly learn.
That's the HONEST truth no matter what you want to believe.
Don't bet the farm on this and hedge your income because this could be disastrous for you and your family.
A bird in the hand is worth 2 in the bush.
In your situation get a real JOB and learn part time.
Best of trades to you.