I have noticed that very often just when a good trade settup emerges - I usually feel uncomfortable, I usually experience a kind of "minor freeze" almost as if I have to force myself to put on the trade. I am looking for every excuse not to put on the trade, when I am about to go for it, and many times I manage to talk myself out of it (especially the really good trades). What pisses me off is that I feel this more regularly than I logically should, the chart is telling me in black and white what to do - but yet I freeze up all too often. Off course I have my good days when this dynamic is not there, but invariably it comes back as strong as ever, as if it that part of me is taking a short rest before coming back at me.
Some reasons why I perhaps feel so:
Self Sabotage?
Too much risk (I risk 2-3% on a trade)?
Perfectionist mentality?
Control - Bringing my pre-conceived notions of what the settup "should" look like as oppossed to letting it unfold naturally?
Performance anxiety (why should I feel so - I know my settups so very very well and I know that they work given the law of large numbers)
Unwillingness to feel dissappointment or "rejection"
Deep subconcious programming to feel that easy money is bad, I am not worthy yadda, yadda..
I have tried everything: meditation, therapy, self help exercises, read all the major books on this subject (Douglas, Kiev), but still this dynamic comes and goes as if I am still new to this. I'll think positively for a few days, and then a settup comes that I don't take (that works out very well), and I'm back in the old dynamic again. Been trading full time for a year now and perhaps it will never go away and I have to learn to live with it, just having to keep chipping away at it. I think it was Johnny T-Bond that mentioned in a post recently that the descrepancy of my subconcious self image of who I think I am versus who I actually am causes TENSION and perhaps I am going through a clash and cohesion kind of layered psychological re construction.
Any ideas on what has worked from traders who have been there?
Some reasons why I perhaps feel so:
Self Sabotage?
Too much risk (I risk 2-3% on a trade)?
Perfectionist mentality?
Control - Bringing my pre-conceived notions of what the settup "should" look like as oppossed to letting it unfold naturally?
Performance anxiety (why should I feel so - I know my settups so very very well and I know that they work given the law of large numbers)
Unwillingness to feel dissappointment or "rejection"
Deep subconcious programming to feel that easy money is bad, I am not worthy yadda, yadda..
I have tried everything: meditation, therapy, self help exercises, read all the major books on this subject (Douglas, Kiev), but still this dynamic comes and goes as if I am still new to this. I'll think positively for a few days, and then a settup comes that I don't take (that works out very well), and I'm back in the old dynamic again. Been trading full time for a year now and perhaps it will never go away and I have to learn to live with it, just having to keep chipping away at it. I think it was Johnny T-Bond that mentioned in a post recently that the descrepancy of my subconcious self image of who I think I am versus who I actually am causes TENSION and perhaps I am going through a clash and cohesion kind of layered psychological re construction.
Any ideas on what has worked from traders who have been there?
